Aggeta13

I’m different. Clearly I am different. If this were not the case, would I not be happy right now? Perhaps I am simply selfish, concerned only for myself.  No, I refuse to believe this because I have never turned down a person in need, even those turned away by everyone else.  The costs of my actions have taken their toll on my own happiness, however. I’ve crossed a new line. Maybe I’ll finally learn my lesson.                  It’s a cruel cycle. I’m either being hurt or hurting others.  Is the purpose of the trials to discover a balance?  Or is it my fault? I believe it’s more of just who I am.  I am a l

Once again, I've proven to be an inconvenience, I see Patiently I wait for you to come around, to spare a moment of your life for me It's clear that such a thing is too much to ask, but again it's nothing new Just another let down, but I admit I had my hopes set on you And yet again, I'm discarded without reason or excuse I suppose I should be used to this repeating emotional abuse But, no, it hurts me every time Clearly there's a pattern The factor is not unknown I guess it's me; perhaps I make it easy to be forgotten and disowned

Anxiety, anticipation, fear My future still stands so unclear I don't understand why this is happening now My heart has taken all that it will allow Perhaps I'm overreacting, but that doesn't change how I feel All the things I could only imagine before, are suddenly becoming real I'm faced with choices I don't know how to make I'm faced with these emotions I don't know how to take Searching for relief through hurting myself I feel myself fading like a photo collecting dust on a shelf I seem to have lost a certain spark inside of me Things changed so quickly for the worst, how could this be? I've never felt this way before, never f